shrinking laura

The ABC's of WLS

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 01:21:23 GMT

Part A

Part B

Part C

Part D

Part E

Comments

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 13:33:29 GMT

Stop trying to stir shit about me on my own God damn website. Some of you are total idiots who don't seem to understand that this is MY personal website to write about whenever the hell I want. Screw censoring myself.. I don't really care if I hurt anyone's feelings anymore. If you have a problem with me, my personal e-mail is posted in my OH profile.

I have taken away the ability to comment on my blog posts. If you don't like what I have to say then STOP COMING TO MY WEBSITE.

LOL Screw you, buddy.

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 18:50:13 GMT

Wow and people call me immature. At least I didn't log into your accounts and delete all of your information and friends. What is this, highschool?

Sorry to all of you who were a victim of Jorge's 12 year old behaviour. I am trying to add people back to my friend's lists ASAP

Encouragement

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 21:21:33 GMT

Hey everyone Just a quick hello for right now. A friend of mine on YouTube could really use some encouragement.. if you have anything that you can say to her to help her feel better about the WLS process.. please don't be shy. here is her latest video:

I'm so sore!

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sun, 13 Jan 2008 12:21:45 GMT

I neglected to mention this last night..

Over the weekend Stephen and I walked 12 or 13km between bars (lol whoops), different parks, went to the movies, walked around downtown London for hours, etc.. I hopped on the scale today and it read 228lbs (103kilo)!!!!! This is down from the 240 (109kilo) that it read mid last week and down from my all time high of 342 (155kilo) which was in the end of July. WOW! I am so excited!!!

My legs are KILLING me and my feet hurt SO bad.. but hey, I totally skipped over the 230's SOOO worth it.

It's A New Year

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 23:58:03 GMT

I had two entries that I published a couple of hours ago because I needed to get some stuff out of my system but I've decided to make them private. I am going to go back to my original content which was strictly surgery related. Sorry to the people who I've offended- it wasn't my intent. I do use this place as a personal escape where I can say whatever I please and get things that are affecting my life off my chest ...without having to speak to my family or close friends. The last few months have been so confusing and hurtful.

Actually, I can barely type right now. I am shaking something fierce and I don't understand why. Maybe it's because I'm tired or maybe it's the stress- I really don't know.

I would like everyone to know that I've never purposely hurt someone before.. I try to be the best person that I can be .. but I am only human and humans do make mistakes sometimes. I caught wind that youknowwho may not have been let go from Dr Joyas.. I have mixed feelings about this. I am scared that if someone is capable of doing something once (or more than once) that they will do it again... I guess I need to learn how to trust in people again.

Jorge, I know you read my website on occasion.. I apologize for talking about our personal lives on the internet. I understand that I've hurt you. As much as I don't like to admit it- I am still somewhat hurt by what you did to me. It gets better day by day but I definitely have a hard time trusting people like the way I used to. I sincerely hope that the things I've heard about you from your friend are untrue. I would like the opportunity to sort it out with you so that we can both understand how this all came to be.

To everyone: Happy 2008. I hope this will be a better year than last year. Last year was life changing.. but it's time for some newer better life changes. I am officially celebrating the New Year as of............. Now.

EDIT: I FORGOT. I have a few ACTUAL New Years pictures I wanted to share!!!!!

Oh and..

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 21:23:28 GMT

Clearly this blog is no longer a place for me to voice my own opinions because now I have to be afraid of hurting other peoples feelings. As much as I am sick of living my life for other people and never for myself.. I will try to be more sensitive to the people who read my content. I've deleted some controversial stuff and also marked some comments as spam (sorry, I don't want to delete them quite yet) because I can't stand to look at the nasty things you guys have said to/about me.

I'm not bad. I'm just human.

The Video in Question

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 21:28:33 GMT

To all of the people who wrote shit to/about me in the comments section of my last blog.. please either a) try to understand the situation or b) mind your business.

........

You know what.. I was going to sit here and actually defend myself against you people but I don't see the point. Try putting yourself into the position that I was in and see exactly how you deal with it. I'm not heartbroken anymore or bitter.. I've moved on. Him being let go is not because he was with me. Dr Joya found out about the things that he had done (not related to what happened with the two of us) and made the decision to let him go because the things that Jorge was doing was harmful to his practice.

I understand that I've upset a lot of people by that video.. it definitely came across a lot worse than what I wanted it to. Sorry about that. Please take into consideration that this blog is about my life and things that are important to me... it is not JUST about my surgery progress (btw I've lost 102lbs but I walked 13km between yesterday and today so hopefully it's more than that!).

About the comments that were posted in my "Jorge" entry.. I do not think Jorge is a third world.. greasy faced whatever.. I don't agree with that comment that was left. I think Jorge is a VERY good looking man. If I didn't think so I wouldn't have dated him LOL ... joking. It's not about looks. I loved him very much. I don't know if I still do or not. I worry about him from time to time. Now that the shit has settled.. I feel bad for what's happening to him but in all honestly he brought it on himself by doing the things that he's done.

Ok, I'm done typing. I am tired and now very stressed out over all of the comments that I received the last few days.

Night guys.

Just stuff!

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 20:54:38 GMT

Christmas Card!!!

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sun, 23 Dec 2007 12:35:35 GMT

HAHAHA This is HILARIOUS. You guys have to see this and make your own!!!

Click HERE

Woo

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 21:47:25 GMT

blah blah blah blah blah blah....

Laura

UPDATED PICTURE TIMELINE
Click the picture below for the full sized version!

3 Months and 12 Days Since Surgery....

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Thu, 08 Nov 2007 20:31:54 GMT

That was then

This is now

Obesity is sexy? What?

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 13:14:52 GMT

No offense to my fellow fat girls.. but I seriously wonder what some of you are thinking!

My friend Erin and I came across a rather.. disturbing youtube profile a couple of weeks back and I felt like sharing it with all of you. The girls name is Michelle and she is 27 years old. In her profile she writes that her interests include "Computers,bbw lifestyle,diet,my health,photography".. I thought it was pretty interesting how she mentioned "diet" and "my health", considering....

Whenever I see women like this and I seriously wonder how they manage to feel comfortable in their own skin. Even when I was bigger (note: I've lost nearly 70lbs) I could never have felt comfortable in my skin. I have confidence but still... no. I can understand feeling sexy at a size 12, 14 or even 16.. but any higher than that and I don't get it. How can someone possibly find all that excess fat and skin and the difficulty breathing and being immobile.............. SEXY?

Maybe I am missing something here.

Here is one of her videos off of youtube.. maybe someone can help me figure this out:

Puerto Vallarta - Blog numero uno

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Thu, 18 Oct 2007 07:11:31 GMT

Hi everybody, I'm sorry I've been MIA!

As you all know, I moved down here to Puerto Vallarta over the weekend and boy what a pain in the ass it was! We drove all the way to Detroit from Guelph only to find out that my flight was cancelled so I ended up spending the night in Detroit at the Howard Johnson all by my lonesome self. I left for the airport the next morning at 4:30 and caught the plane from DTW down to Houston and then continued on to PV. I arrived in PV at 11:15, it took me a grand total of 10-15 minutes to get my bags and whatnot.. I go to the front only to find a missing Jorge! Turns out he slept in until about 11am because him and Angel were up drinking and playing poker the night before. TSK TSK!!!! He arrived around 11:40ish and we drove over to Vips to get a bite to eat and then came back here to the house... commenceeeeee hot make out session! I don't remember what happened after that.. I think I was still a little hazy from the whole morning. Needless to say, aside from the flight.. my trip down here was pretty damn good

Haven't been doing a whole lot the past few days since Jorge has had a weird work schedule. Last night we were supposed to head on out to the movies but he ended up having an emergency surgery to do- one of the ladies at the hospital ended up having a leak after her bypass He got home around midnight or so and we were both so tired and he had to wake up this morning at 8 to go visit patient sooo.. yeah. :S

I love it here, I really really love it here. I am SO glad I came! I don't even know what all to write. I am so tired. I woke up this morning to iron Jorge's dress shirt to go to the hospital and I want to fall back asleep but that's not fair considering he went to sleep at the same time as me and woke up at the same time.

I need to go and find a scale.. I have no idea how much I weigh.

Tireeeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddd!

I'm sorry this post is so messed. It started out kind of organized and now it's all unraveled. Watch this:

I SWEAR TO GOD

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Fri, 12 Oct 2007 23:15:44 GMT

I AM ABOUT TO HAVE SOME SORT OF BREAKDOWN! It's not like a bad one.. I'm just so excited!! My passport arrived today and I am leaving at 9am for Detroit to catch my flight. FOR REAL THIS TIME!!!!!!

OMG! OMGOMGOMG
!!

Finally!!!!!!!

I honestly can't contain my excitement.. I am so sorry that you guys have to read this crap. But just... !!

Morning Fun!!

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Wed, 10 Oct 2007 18:09:19 GMT

Hahahaha

I decided to tape myself doing my hair!.. can you tell I was bored as hell?????

Ughhhhh.

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 15:56:50 GMT

Well, my passport is missing. I don't know where it is.. we looked for hours and hours today and it is no where to be found. I have to go on Tuesday (Monday is Thanksgiving) to Kitchener and get a new one put on rush.. which means that I won't be able to make it to PV until NEXT weekend. Needless to say.. I am really upset right now. I spent all of today in tears because I was so angry and frustrated.

This is what I love about Pam though (cuñis).. I told her I am not looking forward to telling Jorge because I know he's going to be upset and disappointed... and she says to me that he will just have to be excited for one more week. I love that kind of optimism! It made everything seem a little better.

Plus, what's one more week in comparison to the rest of our lives?

I love you, Jorge.

OH MY GOD !!!!

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 22:16:28 GMT

I am seriously excited to the point where I .. can not contain it. I keep having these happy little outbursts where I will start giggling or smiling or saying "OH MY GOD" outloud!!!

Want to know why??

THIS IS WHY!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, that's right!!!!! in less than TWO days I will be in Mexico with my man! Ahhhhhh!!!! SO NERVOUS AND EXCITED AND NERVOUS.. AND EXCITED.. REALLY EXCITED.

I look like this right now --> !!!!
I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack from all the excitement!

I talked to Jorge on the phone and now he's all nervous and excited too. This is going to be a big change for the both of us and we are both praying that it's all going to work out.

A Thank You Letter

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 21:51:52 GMT

Dear Cameron Groscki,

I just wanted to take the time to say thank you. Thank you for telling me that the only way you would be with me is if I lost weight. Thank you for constantly making me feel like a failure. Thank you for never forgetting to remind me how overweight I am. Thank you for treating me horribly and making me feel like the scum of the earth. Thank you for all of the times you picked up jeans that were 4 sizes smaller than the jeans I wear and asking me to 'try them on'. Thank you for making pasta every night and then get angry when I don't lose any weight. Thank you for telling me that I'm not attractive. Thank you for quitting smoking and then screaming and yelling at me when you couldn't have one. Thank you for agreeing with your mom when she said I'm not good enough for you. Thank you for not having a job and leaching money from me. Thank you for never paying back our credit cards. Thank you for using me. Thank you for leaving me with thousands of dollars in debt. Thank you for making me feel like I needed to be skinny to be with you. Thank you for making me hate myself. Thank you for making me feel forced to have surgery to be accepted. Thank you for the start of my new life. Thank you for introducing me to the man of my dreams. Thank you for helping me lose weight. Thank you for changing my life.

I have so many things to thank you for and as much as I fucking hate you, I am so grateful for my life as it is now. I have a new lease on life. I adore life. Life is beautiful. I couldn't have done it without you. Without your selfishness and your rudeness and your cattiness.. I wouldn't be where I am. So thank you.

Sincerely,
Laura Goff

About that date.......

laura@shrinkinglaura.com (Laura) — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 20:53:41 GMT

I mentioned in my last post that I had a date with one of the security guards when I was in PV.. just wanted to address that. I've had a few e-mails and IMs asking me about what happened with us and I just want to make it very clear that we spoke ONCE on the phone after I got back to Canada and that is it. Nothing REALLY happened on the date.. no kissing or anything else. There was an awkward kiss at the end of the date but that's pretty much it. (awkward=him leaning in for a kiss and me turning my head slightly and he caught me on the corner of the mouth)

I don't want anyone to think that I really liked this guy.. I didn't and I don't. I have found the man of my dreams and his name is Jorge.

On a slightly lighter note (heheh I made a funny. get it? lighter?)....... I lost another several pounds!

Updated pictures: